Hou Jhesu schal be sought, desired, and founden.
The One Word to Seek
The soul is encouraged to focus its entire desire on the person of Jesus Christ, who is the true object of all spiritual seeking.
Seek, then, what you have lost, so that you may find it. I know well that if anyone could once have even a little inward sight of that dignity and spiritual beauty which a soul had by nature at its first making and shall have by grace, that person would loathe and despise in the heart all the bliss, pleasure, and beauty of this whole world as the stench of carrion; and night or day would never want to do anything else—except what frailty and the bare need of the body require—but only desire, mourn, pray, and seek how to come back to it again.1 Nevertheless, since you haven't yet fully seen what it is—because your spiritual eye isn't yet opened—I will tell you one word that stands for everything, which you should seek, desire, and find; for in that word is everything you have lost. This word is Jesus. I don't mean just the word Jesus painted on a wall, written in a book, spoken by the lips, or imagined in the heart through mental effort; for in that way, even someone outside of charity can find Him.23 But I mean Jesus Christ, that blessed person, God and man, son of Mary, that glorious virgin—who is all goodness, endless wisdom, love, and sweetness; your joy, your honor, and your everlasting bliss; your God, your Lord, and your salvation.4
The Experience of Finding
True seeking is marked by a desire that displaces worldly attachments, leading to a partial but real experience of Christ's presence.
If you feel a deep desire in your heart to love and please Jesus—whether through focusing on His name, through some other prayer or word, or in any deed you do—and that desire is so strong that it forces out every other worldly or fleshly thought so they cannot rest in your heart, then you are seeking Jesus well. And when you feel this desire for God, for Jesus Christ (it is all one), helped and comforted by spiritual power through the light of God's grace so greatly that it is turned into love and affection, spiritual savor and sweetness, into light and knowledge, into truth—so much that for a time the point of your thought is set on no earthly thing, and feels no stirring of vainglory nor any other evil affection (for they cannot appear at that time), but is only enclosed, rested, softened, anointed, and comforted through the gracious presence of our Lord Jesus Christ—then you have found something of Jesus.5 You haven't found Him fully as He is, but rather a shadow of Him; for the better you find Him, the more you will desire Him.✦ Whatever prayer, meditation, or activity gives you the greatest desire for Him and the deepest sense of Him—that is how you best seek and find Him. Therefore, if you find yourself wondering what you have lost and what you are seeking, lift your mind and the desire of your heart to your Lord Jesus Christ, that blessed maiden's Son—even though you are blind and cannot see His Godhead—and say: It is Him you have lost, and Him you want, and nothing but Him; no other joy or bliss in heaven or on earth, but Him—to be with Him wherever He is, and to see Him and love Him. Even if you feel a little of His spiritual presence in devotion or knowledge, or in any other gift, don't rest in that as though you had fully found Jesus and need seek Him no more. Keep desiring Jesus more and more, as if you had nothing at all, so that you may find Him better. Know this well: whatever you feel of Him, no matter how much—even if you were caught up into the third heaven with Paul—you still haven't fully found Jesus as He is in His joy. However much you know or feel of Him here in this life, He is still above it.
The Unceasing Journey
Because Christ transcends all earthly experience, the soul must persist in prayer and longing throughout its life.
And therefore, if you want to find Him fully as He is in bliss, never cease, as long as you live, from prayers and from spiritual longing.
Read the original Latin
Seke thanne that thou hast lost, that thou myght fynde it. Wel y woot, whoso myght oones have an inward sight a litil of that dignité and that goosteli fairenesse whiche a soule hadde bi kynde of the firste makynge and schal have bi grace, he schulde lothe and dispice in his herte alle the blisse, the likynge, and the fairnesse of al this world as stynk of carioun; and he schulde nevere have wil to doo othir dede nyght ne dai savynge the freelté and the bare nede of the bodili kynde - but desire, morne, prai, and seke hou he myght come agen therto. Neverthelees, in as moche as thou hast not yit fulli seen what it is, for thi goostli yye is not yit openyd, I schal telle oon word for alle whiche thou schalt seke, desire, and fynde, for in that word is al that thou hast loste. This word is Jhesu. I mene not oonli this word Jhesu peynted upon the wal, or writen bi letres on the book, or fourmed bi lippes in soun of the mouthe, or feyned in the herte bi traveil of mynde; for on this maner wise may a man oute of charité fynde Hym. But I mene Jhesu Crist, that blissid persoone, God and man, son of Marie, that glorious virgyne, that is al goodnesse, endelees wisdom, love, and swettenesse, thi joie, thi worschipe, and thyn ai lastynge blisse, thi God, thi Lord, and thy savacioun.
Thanne yif it be so that thou felist grete desire in thyn herte to love and to plese Jhesu, either bi the mynde of this name Jhesu, or bi mynde or seynge of ony othir word, or praier, or in ony dede that thou doost, whiche desire is so mykil that hit putteth ought as it were bi strengthe alle othere thoughtes and desires of the world and of the fleisch, that thei moun not reste in thyn herte, thanne sekest thou wel Jhesu. And whanne thou felist this desire to God, to Jhesu Crist (al is oon) hoolpen and comfortid bi gostli myght thorugh light of Goddis grace so mykil that it is turnyd into love and into affeccioun, gosteli savour, and swettenesse, into light and knowynge, into soothfastnesse - so mykil that for the tyme the poynt of thi thought is sette upoun noon ertheli thynge, ne felith no stirynge of veynglorie, ne non othir yvel affeccioun (for thei moun not appere that tyme), but oonli is enclosid, rested, softed, anoynted, and comfortid thorugh gracious presence of oure Lord Jhesu Crist, thanne hast thou founden sumwhat of Jhesu. Not yit Hym fulli as he is, but a schadewe of Hym; for the betere that thou fyndest Hym, the more schalt thou desire Hym. Thanne bi what maner of praier or meditacioun or occupacion that thou mai have grettest desire to Hym, and have most felynge of Hym, bi that occupacion thou sekest Hym best and best fyndest Hym. Therfore yif it come to thy mynde as it were askand what hast thou lost and what sekest thou, lift up the mynde and the desire of thyn herte to thi Lord Jhesu Crist, that blissid maidenys sone, though thou be blynd and not mai see of His Godhede, and seie Hym hast thu lost, and Hym wolde thou have, and nothynge but Hym, noon othir joie, blisse in hevene ne in erthe, but Hym, to be with Hym wharso He is, and to see Hym and love Hym. And though it be so that thou fele a litil His goostli presence in devocion or in knowynge, or in ony othir gifte what it be, reste not therinne as though thou haddest fulli founden Jhesu and wolt no more seken aftir Hym, but ai be desirande aftir Jhesu more and more for to fynde Hym betere, as thou hadde right nought. For wite thou wel, what that thou felist of Hym, be it nevere so mykil, yhe, though thou were raveschid into the thridde hevene with Poule, yit haste thou not fulli founden Jhesu as He is in His joie. Knowe thou or fele thou never so mykil of Hym here in this liyf, He is yit above it.
And therfore yif thou wolt fulli fynde Hym as He is in the blisse, cese nevere while thou lyvest of praiers and of goostli desyrynge.
Scripture echoes
- ↩Col.2.17;Heb.10.1;1Cor.13.12 — These are a shadow of the things to come, but the body belongs to Christ. Heb.10.1 — For the law, having a shadow of the good things to come — not the very image of the realities — can never, by the same sacrifices which they offer continually year after year, perfect those who draw near. 1Cor.13.12 — For now we see in a mirror, dimly; but then face to face. Now I know in part; but then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
Notes
- 1 ↩bi kynde of the firste makynge: the soul's original natural dignity at creation, contrasted with what it will have again bi grace.
- 2 ↩oute of charité: outside the theological virtue of charity—mere outward or mental use of the name, not living union in love.
- 3 ↩feyned in the herte: rendered as 'imagined/formed in the heart' by mental effort, not as deliberate hypocrisy.
- 4 ↩worschipe rendered as 'honor' (the soul's glory and reverence toward Christ), not merely public liturgical worship.
- 5 ↩ME soothfastnesse rendered as truth (fidelity/reality before God), not mere accuracy.
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